Dean List Award

Assalammualaikum and hi everyone! Happy weekenddddddd! (okay tomorrow is Monday again. Why don’t we have Sunday(s) per weekend? #ridiculous)

Today’s blogpost title is so ambitious and over-exaggerate, right? As cheesy as it might sound to some other people, this blogpost is a long time draft that i have been thinking about whether or not should i posting it. And it seems like i can’t really giving up on my blogging nature. So, i am writing this. But, it is not about grade or academic related, i am writing this to share or to be precise, to express what do i see behind these DL award.

Oh, i am not a 4.0 students (maybe not yet hihi) nor do i am every semester dean list student. No. So, i have been in both phase; not and a DL student throughout 5 semesters degree student. What do i say?

In my opinion, i have always hoped that i can get a good result in every semester with the pointer (GPA) as my guide reference. Does it make sense? 3.5 and above mark it as it is a good semester. Below than that means I still in average and lacking both skills and theoretical knowledge. Does it really make sense?

It is really upon to personal preferences. Some people think exam and grades are so important. Having strong fundamental theory is the key and the most important factor. Without basic knowledge, how do we gonna learning skills and etc.

Some people just couldn’t care less about grades and exam stuff. They are more into skills which are quite good. Who even ask your grade when you can’t even name the most basic components in real life. Do you get me?

What do I wanna write here is that, stop with the mentality of pointer (GPA) students or skill students. Siapa pandai siapa tak pandai? No one ever likes for being put a fancy label or being downgraded. No one like it.

In my humble opinion, both are important. Skills and good grades. If i had to choose, i will just leave them at they are and just choose focus on learning. This is the real turning point. As for me, achieving dekan or whatsoever is more to self-achievement. Something you do for your own favour and not to impress or please someone else. It is more like you making yourself happier and feel happy inside. And you won’t be feeling depressed when you couldn’t achieve it because your goal is to learn.

The most important part being a dean list student (as for me), is not feeling you are better than anyone else and look down on another person. You are boasting around your GPA is okay that is yours to do so anyway, but to think anyone else is no better than you is a big NO. You are starting to have your own comfort zone is the dangerous weapon too. You are thinking you can do it the way you do it without the aim or goal to improve is for me, such a waste. You are starting to feel that, I’m in okay position I have always been in dean list in every semester, of course, i should have no or fewer worries. No. Fix that kind of mentality. I am reminding myself so hard that every time i have a lab session, i need to love this. i need to love this. girl you need to love this. so, later i am no more in awkward position, learning engineering but having zero skill. How come?

You are getting good grades are all 100% your efforts? Good grades are all thanks to your own intelligent genetics and your great skills, are to me (sorry to say this) is wrong(?). At least for me, i have a feeling that i am nowhere near achieving good result without the help of lecturers and also, the most unmentioned important people who help us a lot other than lecturers, are PJ (penolong jurutera). I have always thankful for them, teaching us from equipment and tools on how to pasang and buka them without an ounce of arrogant or any action to belittle us, since you know girls esp. are quite slow in tools, circuits and everything. I remembered there were days when we actually don’t understand the lab sessions, we don’t even know how and who can help us, the PJs came and patiently taught us along with useful tips. Not even once or twice but always. Being remembered on how lacking i am on every beginning of the semester, and till the day i am done with lab test which means i have the better understanding about labs and all, were all regards to them too (although i never express how much grateful i am). Never forget who help you.

GPA is not a measure of someone’s intelligence but more to one’s efforts. No? The top scorer in pop quiz and good in hands-on pbl projects are always from people not in DL or good scorer but the not DL one. But, of course, some of the good grades students are really excellent in the hands-on project too. Much respect for them.

Embrace whatever we have for now and be humble for it. Stay grounded.

I am hoping that everyone’s dream and goals are turning into reality soon. Work hard and never get distracted on your way to your goal. It may take time. It does. But it is not impossible. As long as you stay true to your goal, having a clear intention and vision, we all can achieve something. We all can learn something. Isn’t life itself is learning?

Oh, i am thankful for DL award when i am this lacking. ALHAMDULILLAH. I hope we all can make it this semester and we learn as much as we can.

All thanks for,

Allah who granted everyone’s doa and giving me this happy moment when i am this underserved.

Parents and family members that support me when i am this fragile and always giving me inspiration. All the doas that makes everything turns out so smooth that even i cant believe i faced those hard times.

Lecturers and PJs who patiently taught us again, again and again. THANK YOU. :’)

Friends that are always together through the ups and downs, happy and sad moments, with this journey that almost into three years period. How time flies?

CONGRATULATIONS EVERYONE. WE ARE THE BEST ON OUR OWN TALENT. WE HAVE TO GO UP! #BETRGRINDANDHUSTLE

Congratulation to our superwoman TANYILIN on your 4flat achievement. #awesome #coolcoolcool

Okay. Bye.

Short Update

Hi?! I’m here AGAINNN…. Like seriuslah again?!?? Come on, where else do I can rant as much as I want if not here. Hehe. Pardon me. Because more random-actually-post-depression-blogposts to come. 😀

I am here to give a lecture on ROBOTKU WHY SO COMPLICATED.

WHY WHYYY WHYYYY(?)

K k k k. It is not. It is not that complicated. I am overreacting. I am that drama queen.  It gonna be so successful, right? AMINNN..

Oh, alang-alang dah sebut pasal psm ni, adalah satu petang tu, my friends (Alyaa and Sya) and I were having sembang petang session. Me being me, I was multitasking at my best.(?) No. Of course not. I am not a multitasker person and I am seriously bad at it. I just that bad to the point even when I was typing while talking or listening, I will end up typing those words instead. So, pretty sure, this multitasking thing wasn’t for me. Hmmm. I don’t like multitasking either. Hahaha. Ceh. Okay, at that time, I was reviewing some articles and journals (both hardcopies and softcopies). Basically, my left hand holding my phone (charging state), my right-hand holding a pencil with lappy in front of me with few papers of articles. My robot and extra electrical components are on the floor near with me. ( I know bahaya so careless).

Alyaa was talking, and she is the type yang her hand will find something and gesel-gesel (rubbing) things she grabbed unconsciously whether she talking or listening. Unfortunately, she sat besides me. MANNNN. Sya was a little bit far from us. She sat on her bed at that time.

I just got back from ordering a new battery and I put the old (kembung) battery on the floor. So you guys can figure it out already. YESS. Alyaaa grabbed that old kembung battery and she even rubbed them. HAHAHAHA. Okay its not funny but, she suddenly terjerit kecil and cakap,

‘Eh kenapa panas ni? Cuba rasa ni.’ She passed that old battery to me.

I am being careless electrical student, took and even touched the main conductor part (konon nak check lah) and went AUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHCHHHHH. Panas ya ampunnnnnn.

MANNNNNN.

Sya had it worse. After seeing my reaction, Sya got all curious and wanted to try it herself and checked if we tipu her hahahaha. She grabbed the insulated part (wire), #wiserthanus and the conductor part (have two) were touched and THERE WAS A SPARKKKK!!!!

All of us terus letak that old battery jauhjauh. MashaAllah.

Bahaya. Lagi bahaya kalau careless. Sebab perempuan kan macam you know, tak cool sangat. macam mana nak masuk industri ni. #banyaklagikenabelajar

And till now, I still scared to touch and take that old battery. Tak  buang lagi cause need a little reference selagi new batt tak sampai lagi.HMM. I jokingly said to them,

‘masih beruntung, kalau tak sorang dah Elbert Einsten, sorang lagi Thomas Edison’

hmmmmmm.

Tolonglah diri sendiri fokus buat kerja jangan careless lagi. AHAHAHA.

Okay, done.

Sambung buat kerja.

Bye. MALEMMMM.

Little Two

Hi? Long time no see? HAHAHAA.

I’m sorry for the no-update phase. I guess I am in a phase that I want to tell you guys a lot but betul lah manusia hanya mampu merancang…fufufu. Oh, thank you for catching up with my endless rant and I am super happy because lately, I got a lot of notifications, marking my traffic is blooming. ***:D I’m half happy, half-questioned-myself scrolling back my old blog posts mannnnnn. Should write worthy read blog posts tho hahaha***THANKYOU GUYS 😀

Okay, so today (read: weekend) I’m not going anywhere. I miss ME TIME so muchhhh because I was so busy past these few weeks. I got no time you know to socialise, blog walking, self-talking, writing weekly planner or even have a heart-to-heart time with my roommate (Sya). Busy-ness(?) is good and gold (I do enjoy busy days, they’re gold) but I really need a day or two break time to stabilize myself back and regain back my energy level pheww. And now, bless you weekend! I am happy (to-be)  22 yo child.

I don’t know about others, but I certainly confident that weekend is CALL TIME right? I usually call my mum and talk (for hours) telling every little things, from my what-i-ate till my current-psm-progress (she is like my co-supervisor hehe so supportive throughout the whole thing i’m truly blessed!), talking with my sisters (we basically just fought with each others no sweet time pun HAHAHA but still it is the best way to care bout each other like come on we grew up in that weird and caring way fufufuuu), and talked about ayah, tok tokwan and adik(Sufi) dan abang(Solehin).

If you have followed me in twitter, you did knew on my over-worried(?) nature towards them. Adik is a standard 4 student but I still can’t think he is, we (all of us in the family) think that he still a 9 yo boy. He for sure didn’t like it but I still can’t deny that he’s really like a cute 9 yo boy. Maybe because he is the youngest one or because that someone in my family treat him like he is 9yo boy hahahaha (you know who you are because I am certain she is reading this hahahaha k k). Abang is quite mysterious and quite type personality. Totally opposite from bubbly Adik. Adik talks non-stop so it is easy for us to tackle him and korek any rahsia and problems he got in school. And usually he is the one telling the secret between them two. #cantreallytrusthimhahaha As cute he is, Abang differ in which he has that cold vibe from him. He is very expressionless, heartless and unapproachable. I don’t know whether this is remaja phase atau mencari identiti phase atau whtv phase it is, but it seems that he is naturally that way. It is okay to have that cold side of him, (i love cool person!) but for us, as family members, I find it is really difficult to korek any problems he got in his new school. Oh, he is Form1 student at my previous high school. I really love my high school days so I wanted him to do well there since I really find that it might be the best place for him to improve himself(?).

I am really aware and we (family members) already concluded that, it is no matter where he is, it is upon himself to find the good in every places. Basically, we agreed to that and my heart is at ease because during my high school days, the environment was super helping and inspiring, seniors were all kind and solehah. I JUST ADMIRE THEM ALL

Soleh is good in the way he will make us feeling like ‘don’t worry I’m okay here.’ He is so abang-abang like. Solving this and that on his own, and only call or tell us when he has no more option or literally incapable of handling things anymore. He is a very inexpressive person (like who?). There is one day that parents and family should come to meet their form’s teachers. He didn’t say and even show an ounce care if I attend it or not. I plan to go with my mum at first and cancelled it later because I’d think to stay at home. When he came home later, he asked me,

‘cakap nak pergi. kenapa tak pergi acik?’ I see his face with a little bit expression of kecewa(?). MANNNN.

I was soooo surprised. I felt soooooo bersalah. I thought that he betul tak kisah but hmm see, you need to cakaplah abang. Your sister is sometimes hmm quite nonsensical too you know. So I  was feeling so bersalah even up till now.

Adik and Abang both are their representatives of their school tilawah. I was so amazed because they really make us proud at such young age and in the field that even I find it is quite tough, to get in such opportunity. You go boys!

Sufi is already participated in the competition and got third place. We are so proud not because the place he got, but the lesson behind it. The hard work value through the learning process. Solehin is in training and learning process at school now. I hope he can do well and learn as much as he can and put aside the win-lose target.

I hope both of them are always on the track, always learning and find it is in a fun way. They inspired me as a muslim itself that learning is a continuous process regardless how old are us. It makes me questioned myself and makes me want to improve my bacaan too. They are so good and so knowledgeable that I feel so precious having them. Lets working on self-improving too!

All the best Solehin for your upcoming exams.


Congrats adik Sufii!

Congrats abang, second place is ahmazingggg.

During my high school days, I was so anticipated to see Sytra’s representatives to get any top 3 in Tilawah and Hafazan especially, other than quiz and syarahan. It was so hard  to make it in top 3 because the winner will always from sekolah agama’s participants because yeah, we all know how good and deserving them are. But nowadays, Sytra is also can! I hope these will be their first milestone to do even better in the future.

Congrats on proving us(school) capable in everything. #PROUDALUMNI

And good luck dear self, for your psm hee.

BYEBYE.