WRAPPING UP THE THIRD YEAR

Hi, everyone! It has been a while 😀

I am currently in my semester break phase and I am in holiday mode that means pardon me for all of the blue-ticked messages. I am enjoying my ‘me time’ so much like hello where is my phoneeeee hahahah. You guys too, put away your phone this holiday heheh. I mean yeah, as we all know we are in the busy month for us Muslim, so it is good to take a break from this hectic worldly life. Tone down our time with social media a bit 🙂

And, the major highlight of this blogpost is TADAAAAAAAA well-done dear self, WELLDONE! YOU’VE SURVIVED THE THIRD YEAR ENGINEERING SCHOOL. *pat myself* you have suffered a lot :’) Be prepared, a lot more to come in next semester. Cc : PSMII

You name it any emotional breakdowns, I have felt them all. But, I am grateful to able to finish this yeah third year of school. I don’t know why I feel like this semester has been a super emotional, tiring and an intense semester for me, that I doesn’t want to remember anything regarding this semester. That is how unexcited I am for this semester. But, I do love to pen out some achievements and events that happened during this semester in case I wanna do some throwbacks. #dramathisgirl

1. PSM-I IS DONEEE

If you have been following my blog, you guys must know that how much I rant about my final year project. (that basically shows that it is a precious task for me that’s y I whine a lot hehe) I am the first presenter and I am so nervous. The whole hours before my presentation are really nerve-wracking and I hate that vibe. But, I can’t control them either. Luckily, my supervisor was kind enough to check my SV-mates (moon, akmal and zul) and I slide presentations and we did the rehearsed presentation two days (Monday) before the actual presentation day (Wednesday).  Alhamdulillah, everything went well during the presentation day. The scary QnA session took almost 20 mins. What I really love that day is that I can answer all of the panel’s question and I am really satisfied. Alhamdulillah 🙂

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2.FINALLY, I PLAY CHESS AGAIN

My faculty held an event called FTKSPOC DAY. Even though I am not a sports person I do love and support sports events. So, when everything was in chaos back then, every sport manager desperately needs the player on their team, my friends and I promised to each other to join any sports. From marathon to indoor sports, we finally discussed to separately joined the sports event since the campaign wassatu pelajar satu sukan‘. I was sooo not into sports even though my physical appearance looks fine enough to be an athlete. Yeah, I agree but I am lacking in skills (untrained) so say no to sudden athlete profession hahaha. So, due to promise we made I decided to choose the long time no play sports, CHESS. Believe me that the first and last time I played chess was during standard sixth (primary school). Of course, there is no wayyy I can regain back the old strategies in one week. I went okay, let’s just play and have fun Anisss.  Alhamdulillah, even though we (team not individual game) didn’t win the game, we all learnt a lot. I have met new friends too. #introvertmeetsfriend The best part is hihi…I was half happy half shy to write them myself but it is okay this my blog anyway hehe, I was invited to be a part of SAF players that is a big deal for me. But, it isn’t official yet since next semester will be busiest days for us, final year student. So, let’s keep that between us first lol.

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3.SUMMARIZING THIS SEMESTER EVENTs

There where we all (my housemates and I) went to KL and Selangor for kenduri. Thinking that we don’t know when will have this opportunity again considering Perlis is quite far from KL and we already the third year student. But, I won’t post any photos here cause hihi they photos are everywhere. They posted it already so I kinda okay don’t post it, me myself get boring hahaha.

Birthday celebration. Okay that’s is common. Everyone celebrate birthday so no picture here haha. It was for March birthday celebration (Kak Niza, Sya and Ecah)

We also had a dinner at Mee Racun after a long time we didn’t go there (reminiscing our old memories of previous semester), the TOMYAM there is da BOMBB! #iloveyoualottomyam #plisnoticeme #ceh

Okay, introvert me joined Explorace Day at Main Campus like yeah I go out, socializing a bit too y’alls. #proudme I have uploaded the photo in my insta hahaha that’s basically before semester break and it was my last updated picture on my insta (because after semester break my life wasn’t normal back then :’))

I joined hmm I forget that but IID competition (UiTM) maybe (I can’t recall them: my brain basically isn’t working well since my last final exam paper) But the point is, the event was held at JOHOR which is my wishlist state ever since I was in the secondary school. Reaching Johor completed all states in Semenanjung I have been to. #blessed (need Sabah only to complete Malaysia’s map #cantwait )

During semester break I joined my high school reunion through an event named, Bakti Schiavona. BEST!

Joined XGTYH EXPLORACE DAY (again, i can’t recall what event it was #postfinalsyndrome) at main campus too. I don’t know why i am being like this, so unbelievable I joined this kind of program but luckily we managed to grab third place even though the hampers were basically had no difference in size and have almost the same snacks. #itisokaywelovefood

Lastly, will be the makan ramai-ramai event with my classmates. This is for replacing the tak jadi BBQ event. But, this time only half of my coursemates joined because it was during the end of the semester (financial-wise), final week (education-wise) on top of that it was last minuted plan so it is understandable (even though it seems empty and incomplete :’))

Okay, photo timeee.

Okay, TADAAAA.
byebye third year.

It is a looonggg semester!

Hi everyone! Today is the second day of Ramadhan. I am all energetic hihi (because the free wifi’s speed here is so unbelievably fast, i download all the dramas uhukkk)

It is almost the end of May tho. I somehow weirdly feel that this semester is like super longgg yet it is so fast that I can’t believe it is almost final week soon! Next week is the hectic and scary study week. #icryyy

Being in this super intense semester, I am glad that all of this will be over soon. It is not that I dislike them very much but the amount of work and the pressure is really big that I swear, I once cried over them. But, it is okay. Everything went smoothly. I had no idea how I survived them. I really don’t know how I survived the present-rejected phase for real this semester. Every subject in this semester somehow giving me a headache but luckily, the lecturers are all cool and considerate towards us that I am so thankful for that.

This week is like the hectic-iest(?) week throughout the semester to the point I skip most of my lunchtimes and even had improper dinners which are obviously not good because this girl is so worried and stressful. Luckily, I survived goshhh. I also have no social life and being all worked up throughout this week with the pile of works and tasks. I might look like I am ranting non-stop but hey, I wanna pen them down cause one day if I dare to give up, I should know better how hard-earned my degree wassss.  So, you Anis better step forward.

I don’t know how should I address this, I feel like yeah we already sent those assignments task, but I don’t know why do I still have the incomplete feelings like ughhh when can I distress myself? Seriously, I questioned myself a lot and I worried this would affect my study week. #prayforme

It is okay, I will eventually survive them no matter what right? Okay, I wanna watch some dramas now. Bye everyone.

Have a blessed Ramadhan!

The Good(s) in the Bad

Hi!

Oh, I know I come here way too often. Pardon me. Blame the stress, please. I get myself a treat to blog for a while, as a stress reliever (this is the most economical method) specifically dedicated to my mental health, myself. I have been in the love-hate relationship with literally everything; my PSM, assignments, food appetite and sleep cycle. I really respect those who have survived degree life. You guys are too superior!

Do you know what are the good things when we are productive? I realize that I have become more careless which is good. I basically don’t even care if something didn’t work the way it should be, as long as it works, it is fine for me then. I didn’t care if I did the work alone as long as it is finished, I am good then. Basically, the goal is to finish them all. I have no time to overthink if whether my thesis report will be rejected or not perfect enough (ofc), instead, I keep correcting, adding info(s) and double working on perfecting them. I mean look, this once an-overthinker, now have less worry and learn to give her best effort. Look at how much myself is improving. #icry The whole process that took my sleepless nights with me in tears made me somehow really wanna get this project to the next level. #itry

I have definitely sleep and eaten less which I don’t know these are a good or bad thing. I mean, well if I eat less, I am not sleepy and I can do work all day all night. #consistentme My work will finish on time. But, ofc it is not a  good habit. I don’t know why I am like this. #pleasedonttellibu I mean, the good is that I am no more craving for foods or drinks like cendol durian, laksa, bihun sup and etc. Now that I don’t even have time to crave over anything, I eat whatever. #mudah

I also feel indebtedness to all my family members when I can’t even utter a word over a phone call. My mom knows my silence phone call. My mom knows all the meanings of my ‘ibu, tirah nak balik boleh?’, my silent days without a phone call from me, that she knows it means that I’m having a super bad day that I didn’t want to share with anyone. Do a mom and the family members always be this perfect?

Oh, that it is.

How about yours? What is your good?

I will blog later, again to continue with my ranting about life.

TADAAA.

being me

Hiii!!

What everyone is doing right now? It is 2.18 am now?!! Why are you still staying up at this time? Football? I don’t know anything about football, I have zero idea who is who. I only know Blue for Chelsea and red for Arsenal. Am I even right? luls. Aaa..I know the top 5 ranking of football team clubs. (few of them maybe) Okay lah kan?…

How about the others? Are you scrolling your social media accounts before you go to sleep? No worries, I do that a lot too. #rapuh Or are you watching movies? Well, it is night weekend anyway! Who can resist the temptation of relaxing night right? Or..it is just me thinking that way hehehe..

Me? What I am doing? Yah, well. As you can see, I am blogging. Hopelessly…with my big cup of tiramisu cappuccino drink. Watching KDrama? No lah. I have no time to watch them sobsob. I don’t even feel like to watch them because honestly, I get no time to watch them. It is okay, I can always watch them in my next semester break. #macamtakbiasa

Actually, tonight I am planning to finish some of my works. There are tons of them. I seriously don’t know which one should I do first and I just come to this…blogging guys. #pheww This is my stress-reliever activity so pardon me with my endless rants hehehe. Okay, let’s pray that I really work on my works after this. #notevenafinalyearstudent #thevibeisreal

Okay, let me update some of my schedules for next week.

  • robotic screw 3D drawing (not even know what type of screw a car rim use #notyourengineer) by Monday
  • meeting with supervisor (about PSM slides) before Thursday
  • must check and correct C1-C3 PSM report (format, grammar, content and it is good to adding more infos)  before Thursday
  • Pneumatic online test
  • Actuator test (should do my best)
  • Robotic class replacement on Friday is not yet confirm (tak payah ganti boleh tak hmm. okay okay kita harus ganti )
  • EPC slides
  • EPC presentation (please do my best! there’s no one that can help me other than myself. practice and be well prepare!)
  • chess training for FTK SPOC (i am so unprepared for this i am sorry but still will try my best)
  • TENANGGGGG ANIS TENANGGGGGGG

Hihihiiiii. I hope it is clear why I am being so cold and zombie look alike these remaining weeks. 😀

Oh, this semester I have edited 2 videos in only less than one week and what I can really say is that I love videography. If and only if I have a better camera I could pass to be a vlogger! eh..hehehe. No, this is too much right hehe. I mean, yeah let me do all the edit things cause I freaking love it. I even get acknowledgment from my Chinese groupmates! I show the videos to my sister through a video call and can you guess what is her reaction?

She is reactionless.

YES. She is. Hahaha. I said this to her,

apa lah macam tak best je. tak best ke sha?

tak…sebab aku tak nampak, tersekat-sekat.

(phewwww, nasib baik tersekat bukan tak best lol)

since it is education oriented videos, so I don’t think it is a good idea to share them here. Oh, I wanna explore video editing learning more hehe. Do you good at video editing too? #sharewithme

Note to self,

you gotta do this for you. not for anybody else. you got no second chance. you only have two semesters left for your degree. take some pain, and be happy for the rest of your life. your struggle is yours. live your dream, anis.

bye bye.

BEING A THIRD YEAR ENGINEERING STUDENT

‘you cannot afford to waste time.’ – Anis Atthirrah, 2017 UTeM’s undergraduate.

Hi everyone!

As much as everyone is getting busier, so do I. I had never know a degree student will have at least this much pressure. You got one group assignment and you barely had few days to make it into a final quality video. On top of that, you got about another 4 assignments that had overlap deadline and ofc you have a problem with your energy level. (someone’s body sugar level is so lowww) And this routine, bitter truth it is on repeat every day, week, up to the whole semester, and it gets crazier once we are so close to the final year. Being a student, having these big responsibilities, I mean despite business we have, we still have to watch our work quality, attend classes, quizzes, tests, tutorials, reports, and also the on-going psm project (the one I want it to succeed so bad), without neglecting our social life part too :’) We still need to have time for our friends and ofc with our main tulang belakang, our family members. How much time we spent with them, is incomparable with what education has to offer us. Right?

But, being a good student doesn’t teach us to blatantly give excuses when time gets tough. “I can’t do this.” “I can’t finish that.” “Hey, look I am super busy. Please understand me.” and so the unnecessary words go on. I myself don’t even know why sometimes it is so frustrating when some people really take things for granted. I know sometimes, we are as a human, get physically and mentally exhausted too and when it gets worse, we become extra sensitive over the smallest things.

I admit that we are all like that, sometimes. I sometimes got extra disappointed when I thought I had done my very best and when I just asked people for come for a meeting, the waiting game is real and I am so speechless. I am in a wrong mindset too, never listen to their stories. Ofc, people has their own reasons and I understand that. My point is, we got too tired that our heart is so fragile that it could break anytime soon over one smallest mistake that makes people misunderstanding each other. It just could be easier.

We always think that we are the only one who did this and did that and thought why people being so mean towards us. People just can’t understand us and just being hard enough on us. We think we are the victim but we are not. Some people just had it way harder than us. Just because they always show up for every occasion, look energetic and bright all the time, doesn’t mean they don’t deserve the spot of being tired like we are. Just only because they are all silent. Just only because they don’t show you people how much works were done by them to make the other people’s work much easier. The silent sleepless nights are all to us are nothing just because we didn’t know. Let’s from now on, think of others’ shoes too.

People might disagree with me on this one, stay up till very late at night or doesn’t sleep at all and didn’t show up for tomorrow morning classes. As a student who comes to every single class despite those true excuses (some reasons are acceptable regardless), when the lecturer asks us ‘where are your friends, do they OTW to class?’, I really feel sad somehow. It is not about you are a good student if you come to every class, NO. It is NOT like that. It is about ‘respect’ or manner. You always can give any excuses you want (unpreferable) but please inform the lecturers. They do not get paid for waiting for us.

Being productive these days, it makes me happier. I felt energetic even though physically, I look old enough (because of my tired face) and heartless human being on the earth with those dark circles, I enjoy my degree days. I learn a lot. 😀

I hope everyone is having good days ahead and achieve whatever goals we dream.

Till then, all the best everyone.

#imgoingtoworkonmypsm #prayforme

Growing Old

Hi everyone! Happy Friday 😀

Have you ever feeling old?

Nah..I am only 22, I still haven’t figure out my life yet. Nah…I am still young, as long as the number isn’t reached the 30 mark yet, I am still considered young.

Yes..am I really looked aged? I will turn 30 soon, I am becoming old soon enough.

Those might be the answers within us, ourselves.

Turning 22 this year, I had mixed feelings. Aside from the changes in number, I personally hope I am growing inside too. Growing old is a natural phenomenon, scientifically, and to look beyond that, it is also a sign from God that nothing last forever. Knowing this, as a human being, doesn’t it taught us something? How much we so into something, how much we hope they stay, none of them will forever here for us. We should learn that life thought us, it is temporary. Isn’t it?

To look deeper, I always tell myself whenever I get sad, down, hopeless, demotivated, I tell myself, ‘Hey, don’t dwell on it too long, it is temporary, it will surely pass’. Be it positive or negative feelings or things, they are temporary.

As the age is increasing, I hope so do my heart is becoming warmer. How I could express myself better, instead of writing here. How I should trust others more than I doubt them. I hope I could really ask “are you okay?” instead of asking them silently in my heart. I hope I could become a little bit more selfless.

I hope I define everything including myself in my own opinion and not others. Define my life purpose that is yet to figure out and don’t settle for what others said. If someone said xx is too old for marriage, xxx is too young for pursuing a dream, you are incapable, don’t settle for that. We do what we want as long as it is within the religion boundary. We human, have the different lifetime, so what it makes our stories the same then? It is okay to be different. It is.

I hope we ourselves becoming more open in discussing and learning new things. Learning to accept the differences instead of creating a barrier. When we have different opinions and views on something, we accept it as it is, like we want others to accept ours too. Accept that our point can be wrong too regardless how old our age is. Being older than anybody doesn’t mean we always right nor does we are always better. No.

It is a loss for us, to only grow old physically and not mentally. 

And..lastly, we should love ourselves more.

And more.

Bye.

SchiavonaXSytra

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Hi everyone! What a long weekend I had last week but I had so much fun!

It’s SchiavonaXSytra event!

As glamorous as it may sound (yeke ceh), it was a moment full of laugh, happy and cheerful days of the weekend.

Schiavona which stands for my batch name in collaboration with Syed Putra or we did called it as Sytra, were planning to give a talk on things like after SPM path, university life and some motivation to those peers. We aimed for Form 4 and Form 5 students but, unfortunately, the Form 5 students can’t participate at the very last minute with their busy schedules and we understood them as we also once had been in their spot too. It was really lively cheerful and energetic with the youthful Form 4 students! They were all cute hehehe. (Am i like them too back in my Form 4 days? hahahaha..)

The event took about 2 days and 1 night. (Saturday and Sunday). Saturday morning about 8 or 9 am, the opening ceremony is started. I am not so sure about this morning programme since I came about 11 am. Basically, I just skipped this morning programme and they just had some opening ceremony and gave a talk on after SPM path: matriculation, STPM, foundation, and diploma. Oh, I just arrived Perlis in the very early morning (6.00 am), went straight to my home, rest and packed & prepared some important infos for the evening event.

Actually, I came earlier than the evening slot which is at 2.00pm for attending my brother’s class Birthday event. It was yummily heaven there, I swear. There were Laksa (we proudly brought Laksa Kuala), Nasi and lauk pauk, cream puff (sedap ya ampunn), dadih (in two flavours which are susu and jagung but susu is too yummeh i cant stop), puding caramel (like who on earth doesn’t like this dessert tell me tell me), birthday cakes (i don’t so into cakes so i gave it a pass), nuggets sausages and fries (that infamous trio i don’t mind them after i ate two bowl of laksa like erkk), and etc fancy delicious foods i can’t even remeber since i can’t eat them, I’M TOO FULL. Bless this class birthday, I will surely come menyibuk again 😀 #tahumakanje

Back to the event story, the evening event programme focused on University’s promotion(?) hahaha. More to we told them our University’s main courses, campus etc etc. The programme started with short speeches and videos from each university’s representatives and continued with University Talk in small group discussion. The students will move in groups and rotate and went to the university of their preferences. So, they could ask in detail about university things etc etc. In this section, they were a lot of students came to UteM representatives (read me) and asked itu ini itu ini and I as a goood UTeM’s students (self-proclaimed) answered them with some videos hahaha. #easierthatway I do gave them a short self-motivation telling them, you guys do not need to be worried. As long as you guys do your best, whatever outcomes indeed a blessing and planned by Him. Be happy and enjoy your school life. #seniorsangatceh

Okay, moving on to the night session, it was LDK session. I have randomly been chosen as group faci for group 10 and named as Pasti Boleh. (okay jangan gelak) Creating some cheers for them and having some chitchat with them. They all were funny and cute. We have so much funnn! Oh, I also curicuri tulang to sneak out from the programme for a while to go to koop! I miss koop so much oh no i mean koop’s food and memories. They will be forever cherished moments :’D I met my little brother and belanja him, and he only asked for Mamee Chef like ugh siapa ajar ni hahaha. Since the weather is rainy and so sejuk I understood his craving(?) so much that tak asramalah tak makan maggi heheheh. I went easy and belanja him yes that Mamee Chef okay don’t tell ibu heheheh. #alliance #jokejokejoke

Sunday’s morning was explorace session and my friends and I, were not the AJKs and we took that opportunity to bring back the old memories. #myheartiscrying We jalan-jalan from Form 5 classes (so sad they were only 4 classes left), we took pictures of us imagined us from 5 years ago in the same class (5 Delima) and at the same spot (bawah kipas belakang sekali). Me, from the left, back then i love writing so much, Fifah being Fifah sleepy all day hihihi, and Ika with calculator loving Maths. CLICK. Captured. We from 5 years ago. We went to 4 Delima (Fifah and I class), I at the back of the class tepi tingkap corridor sebelah Fifah. We talked and remisnicsed a lot, siapa ketua and pen ketua tingkatan, guru tingkatan and other clasmate’s positions. Uwuuuu sedih lah. Took some photos too there.

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We went to aspuri jalan jalan and look at our old dorms. Tears in my heart :’D I feel old enough hmm. #emotional

Lunch? We lunch at the school canteen. I missed Kak Esah nasi daging so much! I miss my buka puasa essential drink oren susu! I literally missed everything about the school.

Sunday’s evening was another LDK session. I took some of the students’ pictures. Basically, they were volunteering themselves. ‘Saya saya! sayaaa!!’ Emm hahhahhaha. They are all youthful like that and I am a happy faci 😀

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Pasti Boleh 😀

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Err what is their group name? I forgot sorry qt.

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Cekodok or Belacan group? Sorry qt.

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Among fav group but couldn’t remember groups name. hii.

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Cobra

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Tiger

At 4.30pm, the closing ceremony started. Speeches from Pengetua and Ketua Pengarah SxS, (big thanks for them Azam, HafizJu and Chipmunk and other Schiavonas), delivered explorace’s winning prizes and some photos session. The thoughtful Form 4 students sang us infamous Tepuk Terima Kasih and we were all terharu. I really mean it. They were so good and kept saying that they enjoyed and having so much fun till the very end.

I learned a lot from this SchiavonaXSytra event.

Pure innocence feeling makes them has no wall or boundary. They support and cherish people with different background, group and person. They encouraged among themselves even though they were in different groups and when they united as one, I felt amazing synergy among them and I respect that. I love that Sytra have this kind of traits. 😀

To all family Schiavona who might be reading this, thank you! Being a part of this family is a blessing. Let’s join this event together in the future with the better version of ourselves  too:D

To dearest Zeatradous, do your best in whatever you are pursuing right now! Enjoy school life!

To Sytra familia, wherever we are and whatever we do, lets forever keep Sytra in our heart!

#BaktiSchiavona

#givingbacktocommunity