17 HIGHLIGHTS OF THE YEAR

 

Hi! I’m back! Hehe. I just want to do a year throwback here! Can i? hahaha. 2017 has come to end and i am wishing for a better us, the better days ahead of our life! May our 2018 becomes lit and we are all shining the brightest in our own way! 2017, here I go!

1.New Year celebration! 20162017. I have never celebrate my new year outside and never want pun hahaha but this year I’ve celebrated it with my housemates! Pretty much a fun experience but honestly, there’s nothing much other than pretty fireworks. I hope that was my first and last new year celebration outdoor. Hahahaha. Not that I’m not loving the idea of fireworks and making memories with friends but, I need to be honest with myself that I love to celebrate it indoor more than anything. I just like to simply celebrate it with just myself, a book (diary), an inspiring song on repeat and a coffee. Planning roughly a year goals and more to self-improvement list. I like to go to that page the every next day of the year, to keep myself back to the root. Isn’t more meaningful and it just give me strength! Hahaha. Mmm, the pictures are all missing (pretty sure I don’t know where they are since there are too many pics!)

2.First Day Last Sem at Campus. This semester is my last semester at UTeM, and next semester would be my internship (6 months omg) and then my degree life is just complete! *cant wait!* My first day of this semester are ridiculously hilarious. I just had one lecture that day and we all (girl classmates) went straight to Bandar. Who on earth in their final year have that one class that doesn’t reached 30 mins mark pun, and straight away having fun till night. Hahaha. It was just so fun!

3.Dean Award Event. Alhamdulillah. I made it again this semester too and my friends did well too! I am so grateful to have it and attending my last Dean Award event at UTeM make me feels so touching. Why UTeM song lyrics is sooo good that I got a goosebump singing it during that day and it gave me such a extra extra good and positive energy. I even downloaded it and listened to it on repeat during my psm days guys, I swear it is true. LOL. The best part of attending this event was that the feeling and motivation that you got after this event. It was a good feeling ever! 😍😍

4. Sleep at Nisa’s house. The best part are sleeping (bilik nisa sejuknya ya Allah), satay and all pasar malam’s food are my palam’s fav food so happy so yummy, and sidai baju together hahahaha. That was so weird and cute memories that I will cherish it forever!

5.PSM-I presentation day. (I regret it so much, all pictures are broken dont know why, need to work hard and buy a camera pfft). Alhamdulillah I got an A for my beloved subject. Thank you, SV and panel yang baik hati 😀

6.PSM-II presentation day. I really love my final year project that if I have time to improve my final year project, I will definitely do so! IAllah. My FYP is about a maze solving robot. If anyone here curious or interested about it, you guys can youtube it since there are many videos about it. Too lazy to upload hahaha.

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7.FTK Spoc Day. Finally, I played chess again. Last time I played it when I was in Standard 5 or 6. It was fun to do things we scared to do. The team was a very good team, from the team manager to the players! I will cherish this team members forever!

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8.SAF(Sukan Antara Fakulti) CHESS. I have always wanted to be cheered by everyone too. Hahaha. Tak lah, it always been my dream to be apart of SAF team since my very first SAF days in my first year degree. I have always watched games and support them esp if they are any of my classmates in any of those games for years. Otherwise, I don’t go watch pun hahaha. I always think that athletes are super cool. If they are boys, they look handsomest and if they are girls, they look prettiest during their game. I don’t know why I have been adoring so many athletes ever since my childhood days kut hahaha. So, to be apart of this SAF team this year, my chess team even got silver medal for my faculty, and my faculty even get first place, is very an indescribable feeling i’ve ever had. So proud, so lucky, so grateful I am. I even happily joined the perbarisan team for athletes. My usual timid self did not feel shy at all at that time but just happy hahaha. I guessed that it must because I’ve always wanted to do this. I felt so good!

9.SCHIAVONAxSYTRA. I met people that I love so much during my high school days and even till now I am grateful that they are friends of mine. I really miss high school days. The best part of high school days of mine are USRAH and DHUHA time!

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10. Angah’s Convocation Day. Congratulation for graduating prettily. I love you so much, you are such inspiration! Can’t wait for Along’s convo too!

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11. August babies Birthday Celebration. Thank you everyone for putting much effort! Got a lot of presents too! Thank you!! 😍😍💛

12.BBQ with Housemates. Who ever thought that BBQ could be this humble hahahaha. No fancy foods or places but it turns out so good. Tomyam, baked potato and sausage, also maggi are simply everyone’s fav! Thanks housemate!

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13. Malacca with siblings. Thank you Angah and Along for coming here despite inconvenience. I’m such a happy kid. Cause after this I don’t know when will we ever coming back to Malacca. TT

14.Buka puasa event with classmates. This is our last breakfasting together. Tsk tsk. Thank you everyone for coming despite final exam during last semester. Kampung morten is so pretty!

15.Makan makan event with PA. Our PA is the best! Thank you Cik Salihin!

16.Retreat. The best event BETR ever did!

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17. 2017, me.

Alhamdulillah, all praises belong to Allah. Dear family, lecturers and friends, thank you for making my year complete! I’m sorry if I’ve ever hurt you in any way. Everyone, let’s make our 2018 shine the brightest!

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love,2017. hope, 2018.

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The Good(s) in the Bad

Hi!

Oh, I know I come here way too often. Pardon me. Blame the stress, please. I get myself a treat to blog for a while, as a stress reliever (this is the most economical method) specifically dedicated to my mental health, myself. I have been in the love-hate relationship with literally everything; my PSM, assignments, food appetite and sleep cycle. I really respect those who have survived degree life. You guys are too superior!

Do you know what are the good things when we are productive? I realize that I have become more careless which is good. I basically don’t even care if something didn’t work the way it should be, as long as it works, it is fine for me then. I didn’t care if I did the work alone as long as it is finished, I am good then. Basically, the goal is to finish them all. I have no time to overthink if whether my thesis report will be rejected or not perfect enough (ofc), instead, I keep correcting, adding info(s) and double working on perfecting them. I mean look, this once an-overthinker, now have less worry and learn to give her best effort. Look at how much myself is improving. #icry The whole process that took my sleepless nights with me in tears made me somehow really wanna get this project to the next level. #itry

I have definitely sleep and eaten less which I don’t know these are a good or bad thing. I mean, well if I eat less, I am not sleepy and I can do work all day all night. #consistentme My work will finish on time. But, ofc it is not a  good habit. I don’t know why I am like this. #pleasedonttellibu I mean, the good is that I am no more craving for foods or drinks like cendol durian, laksa, bihun sup and etc. Now that I don’t even have time to crave over anything, I eat whatever. #mudah

I also feel indebtedness to all my family members when I can’t even utter a word over a phone call. My mom knows my silence phone call. My mom knows all the meanings of my ‘ibu, tirah nak balik boleh?’, my silent days without a phone call from me, that she knows it means that I’m having a super bad day that I didn’t want to share with anyone. Do a mom and the family members always be this perfect?

Oh, that it is.

How about yours? What is your good?

I will blog later, again to continue with my ranting about life.

TADAAA.

Growing Old

Hi everyone! Happy Friday 😀

Have you ever feeling old?

Nah..I am only 22, I still haven’t figure out my life yet. Nah…I am still young, as long as the number isn’t reached the 30 mark yet, I am still considered young.

Yes..am I really looked aged? I will turn 30 soon, I am becoming old soon enough.

Those might be the answers within us, ourselves.

Turning 22 this year, I had mixed feelings. Aside from the changes in number, I personally hope I am growing inside too. Growing old is a natural phenomenon, scientifically, and to look beyond that, it is also a sign from God that nothing last forever. Knowing this, as a human being, doesn’t it taught us something? How much we so into something, how much we hope they stay, none of them will forever here for us. We should learn that life thought us, it is temporary. Isn’t it?

To look deeper, I always tell myself whenever I get sad, down, hopeless, demotivated, I tell myself, ‘Hey, don’t dwell on it too long, it is temporary, it will surely pass’. Be it positive or negative feelings or things, they are temporary.

As the age is increasing, I hope so do my heart is becoming warmer. How I could express myself better, instead of writing here. How I should trust others more than I doubt them. I hope I could really ask “are you okay?” instead of asking them silently in my heart. I hope I could become a little bit more selfless.

I hope I define everything including myself in my own opinion and not others. Define my life purpose that is yet to figure out and don’t settle for what others said. If someone said xx is too old for marriage, xxx is too young for pursuing a dream, you are incapable, don’t settle for that. We do what we want as long as it is within the religion boundary. We human, have the different lifetime, so what it makes our stories the same then? It is okay to be different. It is.

I hope we ourselves becoming more open in discussing and learning new things. Learning to accept the differences instead of creating a barrier. When we have different opinions and views on something, we accept it as it is, like we want others to accept ours too. Accept that our point can be wrong too regardless how old our age is. Being older than anybody doesn’t mean we always right nor does we are always better. No.

It is a loss for us, to only grow old physically and not mentally. 

And..lastly, we should love ourselves more.

And more.

Bye.